Faded memories of where I have been
Flood my mind a passing sin
Delusions of improvement help me along
To tell myself I'm not that far gone
I cling to truths so far removed
From society they barely soothe

I am the only one with no rest
I am the only one with the best
I am the only one to confess

Indifference and apathy clutch me tight
Far too depressed to put up a fight
So many regrets it's all a mess
I've just stopped caring you already guessed
They battered me down bruised my face
Soon I'll be gone without a trace

A distant voice plagues my thoughts
Reminds me of wars I had once fought
My feelings so eager my spirit so willing
Hadn't really thought of the emotional billing
Months went by and then I realized
Everything shared had been subsidized